This entry has two main points.

1. Alexisonfire is super-awesome.
2. the band needs to happen.

I’m sure this is all gonna sound really ridiculous and uh… I don’t exactly expect anyone to believe all this. Uh… for the last little while I’ve been kinda keeping correspondance with my sanity, and uhh… I really get the feeling that I’m starting to lose interest in the letter writing process. The pieces of the letters, they just get progressively shorter and shorter until it’s not even a reply. I uhh… the whole thing makes me really nervous. I just wish I could show you what a huge problem this is.

I like this band. A lot.

I kind of have this… Really terrible habit of asking myself all these stupid questions, right? Like what if uhh… what if there’s a spot on my body that I can touch to keep my heart from beating? or like what if, what if theres this uhh… stray bullet out there that’s gonna come through my window and take me out? like what if uhh… what if theres this huge unstoppable comet that’s just gonna like, destroy the earth and all of us? Like what… what if that’s happening right now? How can I avoid all these questions if I don’t have that? Like, who is gonna be here? Why… who is gonna be there… in the hospital? Who is gonna tell me that all this is bullshit… its a dream? Just a dream. This is not a joke. And uhh… i’ll never sleep.

Who will be …
there to tell …
me how stupid …
I am?!

Who will keep me from lashing out?
(lashing out)
Anxiety chokes me like razor wire
(razor wire)

I am talking about “Watch Out!” by Alxisonfire. I think I listen to this CD once a day now (during the week, at work, on the way to work, etc.) I don’t know what it is about the album, but I can’t stop listening. I suck at explaining why I like things lately, other than “it’s awesome, listen”. It’s more of my problem writing, but I suppose “hey look” is better than nothing at all. I suppose in this case, “watch out” would be more appropriate, though. I remember hearing about Alexisonfire a while back, but never really listened. Then their newer album came out last year, and I listened, and liked, but it fell off the radar. The other day, I was feeding my CD buying addiction and saw it on my Amazon wishlist, so I picked it up used. Now I can’t stop listening. It’s so good.

Which brings me to my second point of this post. While listening to Alexisonfire, and playing with the ‘advanced relationship’ tools on MusicBrainz (which are awesome), I found out that 3 of the members of Alexisonfire are 22. One is 24. I am 24. Why can’t I have fun and play in a band and make awesome music that people ramble about on webpages that barely anybody reads? Joel keeps e-mailing. We keep talking. We need to start playing. We will. We will.